Whatever
I awake every day and lie to myself
Opening my eyes into a reality that I quickly push away
And place a foot down onto the warm floor of ignorance
On my way to take a shit.
I push myself every day
Thinking I’m happy, wanting to be happy
Projecting into the question why
Caught between knowing I don’t want my reality
And I do not want to be alone.
I fold upon myself every day
Dropping into heaviness, exhausted of my light
Apathetic from the truth that people are animals
Wondering how trust and wild coexist
Do tigers make good lovers?
Do I make good decisions?
I fall asleep every day
Hoping I glance a seductive smile
With a heart and mind of human behind it
A sense of thoughtfulness and caring
A will to be above the tree line
And fly atop the winds of reasons that matter.
I dream every night
Of a world where people care
Where altruism pours from taps and soaks kisses
And a person’s weight is measured accurately
On the scale of humanity by all
For all.
In love and life and strangers we trust
A soldier’s motto to continue marching
A shaman’s utterance to continue summoning
As the search goes on in nature and nurture for someone
To take my lies away
To rest my fight
To unfold this weight
To soften my pillow
To sing in my dreams
Of the need to live knowing
Someone worth dying for.